All The Way Now

"If we insist that it takes time, then I'm afraid we're still hiding something. It's just a matter of honesty and willingness. Are you willing to take it all the way? Are you willing to take it all the way now?

Life is only now.
Love is only now.
Truth is only now.
Wisdom is only now.

Enlightenment, Self realization - only now.
Joy is only now.
Happiness is only now.
Freedom, only now.
Absolute Peace, only now.

It's up to you."

Scott Morrison
excerpt from 'The Tao Of Now' by Josh Baran

'Not trying is worse than to stumble and fall'

Lions, Tigers & Bears

I'm not scared of lions and tigers and bears (no I'm not)
But I'm scared of (loving you)
I'm not scared to perform at a sold out affair (that's right)
But I'm scared of (loving you)
Am I the only one who thinks it's an impossible task
Why it don't last? Is that too much to ask?
Why do we love Love,
When Love seems to hate us?

Sorry if I sound so filled with gloom.
You say you care, and I know you do...
But this is from my experience
And my conclusion only makes sense.
Just cause I love you, and you love me
It doesn't mean that we're meant to be.
I can climb mountains, swim cross the seas
But the most frightening you and me.

[Chorus]

Most circumstances, I know my fate
But in this love thang, I don't get the game.
Why does it feel like those who give in,
They only wind up losing a friend.
Just cause I love you and you love me,
It doesn't mean that we'll ever be.
Fly cross the ocean, sing for the queen
But the most frightening thing is you and me.

[Chorus]

I'm sure though I'm not sure
But if we never try, We'll never know
It's better to have loved then not to loved at all.
Not trying is worse than to stumble and fall
And if we do, I'd rather it be with you
Cause at least there will be sweet memories.
Oh I'm not scared...

[Chorus]

Jazmine Sullivan

This song is dedicated...

On a special day for a special someone...


Distance and Time

This song is dedicated
To all the lovers who can't be together
Separated by distance and time...

You are always on my mind
All I do is count the days
Where are you now?

I know I'll never let you down
I will never go away

I really wish that you would stay but what will we do
All the days that you've been gone I dreamed about you
And I anticipate the day that you will come home, home, home

No matter how far you are
No matter how long it takes him
Through distance and time
I'll be waiting
And if you have to walk a million miles
I'll wait a million days to see you smile
Distance and time, I'll be waiting
distance and time, I'll be waiting

Will you take a train, to meet me where I am
Are you on your way?
And I will never do anything to hurt you
I'll never live without you

I really wish that you would stay but what will we do
All the days that you've been gone I dreamed about you
And I anticipate the day that you will come home, home, home

No matter how far you are
No matter how long it takes him
Distance and time,I'll be waiting
And if you have to walk a million miles
I'll wait a million days to see you smile
Distance and time
I'll be waiting

I'll be waiting
I'll be waiting
through distance and time
I'll be waiting

You are always on my mind
All I do is count the days
Where are you now?



Alicia Keys

Love Always Takes Us Somewhere...

I couldn't resist - a few more words from Pilar in 'By The River Piedra...'

"But love is like a dam: if you allow a tiny crack to form through which only a trickle of water can pass, that trickle will quickly bring down the whole structure, and soon no one will be able to control the force of the current.
For when those walls come down, then love takes over, and it no longer matters what is possible or impossible; it doesn't even matter whether we can keep the loved one at our side. To love is to lose control."


"But love is always new. Regardless of whether we love once, twice, or a dozen times in our life, we always face a brand-new situation. Love can consign us to hell or to paradise, but it always takes us somewhere. We simply have to accept it, because it is what nourishes our existence. If we reject it, we die of hunger, because we lack the courage to stretch out a hand and pluck the fruit from the branches of the tree of life. We have to take love where we find it, even if that means hours, days, weeks of disappointment and sadness.
The moment we begin to seek love, love begins to seek us.
And to save us.

...my heart once again began to speak to me. It told me that the breach in the dike had allowed the waters to pour through, that the wind was blowing in all directions at once, and that it was happy because I was once again willing to listen to what it had to say.
My heart told me that I was in love. And I fell asleep with a smile on my lips."

By The River Piedra...

I just finished reading 'By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept' by Paulo Coelho. It was recommended to me by my good friend Tasleem. I've been a Coelho fan since I read 'The Alchemist' years ago so it was great to find another of his books that (as usual) reached me at the right time.

The River Piedra is mainly about love and forgiveness, both on a human material level, and a higher spiritual one. There is so much I could say about the book, and there are so many moving quotes about love, but there is a paragraph that I wanted to share because to me, it was perfect. These are the thoughts of the main character - Pilar.

It describes to me what can so often transpire in the beginning of love. Before you're enveloped with safety, before you're fully secure. Everyone might not be able to relate, but to me, it's like he reached into my memories and summarised exactly how I've acted...more times than I care to mention!

"Wait. This was the first lesson I had learned about love. The day drags along, you make thousands of plans, you imagine every possible conversation, you promise to change your behaviour in certain ways - and you feel more and more anxious until your loved one arrives. But by then, you don't know what to say. The hours of waiting have been transformed into tension, the tension has become fear, and the fear makes you embarrassed about showing affection."

Awareness is a beautiful thing. As are lessons learned. Not being dictated to by fear was a big lesson learned for me in the last year. So thankfully, it's not a course of action I take as readily. So don't stifle your true self and choose fear. Choose love. :-)

Why? Why not?!

The best way to predict your future? Create it!

I have recently been looking more into the Law Of Attraction. It was something I was familiar with already. Mainly because I had been practicing it for as long as I can remember, without knowing what it was or what to call it. My best friend and I used to call our drive and belief in ourselves and our goals 'crazy faith'. It was the same thing, and it was innate. Knowing what we wanted, seeing it in our minds, believing it wholeheartedly (no matter what naysayers would say!) and living it. Not to mention working our behinds off towards it.
Sadly, the last few years have caused my crazy faith to diminish. It would rear it's head every so often, I would try to believe (with all my might!), but heart of hearts...my heart wasn't in it. And the reason? I let the negative voices and opinions of others infiltrate til doubt crept into my mind. Doubt took a good look around, decided it was comfortable, bought the land and started to build. From one room it expanded its sneaky ways to an entire hotel complex in my head. Once you let it in and listen to it, it tends to stick around. Very closely followed by lack of self confidence and sadness, who rented rooms in the hotel and made themselves very cosy!
But, there's nothing like getting everything bulldozed down in your life to get you rebuilding. Rock bottom is a perfect, solid foundation with which to start. The blueprint is being formulated as we speak!

So back to the Law of Attraction...
I had been introduced to The Secret about 3 years ago but for some reason, it didn't resonate within me. I never made it through watching it as I felt it was very materialistic and I just wasn't buying the goods at the time. Plus, I was very into reading the works of Eckhart Tolle (still am, but that's another blog entry!) and it seemed to go against his ideas. Ideas that I believed in.
But recently, my best friend happened to watch it again and told me to give it another shot. She really felt like it would speak to me given my current circumstances. So I did. And she was right. It wasn't materialistic. And it did actually work in line with a lot of my beliefs. But the beautiful part is that I tested it out - and it worked! I started with small things and built up. I projected when trains would arrive at my station, certain outcomes with situations I had with people and also how much money I would make that week (and I aimed pretty high!). It all worked EXACTLY how I created it in my mind. The tricky part is that you have to really believe. So whatever it is that you want or need, it has to be realistic to you.
I've passed on the techniques and ways of thinking to other people and they are getting very similar results. So try it!!

But the bottom line to this post is what I shall get to now. At times, it is very hard to keep the faith, to really believe, and to project what you want. But one thing I have noticed about practicing the Law of Attraction is just how often I can have a negative mindset. And just how often I play out dramas in my head. As I talked about in my 'trust' post earlier, we can all get pretty detailed and dramatic with it. So now I am ALWAYS aware of it. And the idea that I am shaping my own reality with my thoughts makes that a scary concept at first, and then an empowering one because I can simply decide to change my mind. As simple as that - I CHANGE MY MIND. I choose happiness over sadness, I choose the outcome I want from a situation instead of the fixating on the thing I don't want and going to town with it in my head.
That was the most beautiful thing about the Law of Attraction. I realised that you can truly choose to be grateful and happy at ANY GIVEN MOMENT. You can choose. It's up to you. And if there's nothing else you gain from it, isn't that happiness and peace priceless?
For some unknown reason I was conditioned to always expect the worst, especially in intimate relationships. So guess what always happened? But a simple shift in thinking has changed everything. Why should the worst case scenario happen? Why should things not work out? Why are we conditioned to expect the same from our future as we have from the past? If insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different outcome (thank you Einstein) isn't it time we changed our minds?
So expect good things. Expect positive outcomes. Expect miracles.

"Whether you think you can or think you can't -- you are right."
- Henry Ford

"Some [wo]men see things as they are and ask why. Others dream things that never were and ask why not."
- Robert Kennedy

"If you don't ask, you don't get."
- Mahatma Gandhi

Seriously??!!

So what with the whole doppelganger thing on facebook, i was curious! But, really...?!

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